Life affirming
When I was experiencing feelings of agitation during my addiction I would use the next fantasy, escape into the idea that a man would rescue me, think a career/ money would solve my problems, that having children would make me feel better and the list went on ad infinitum. However, the 12 step program of SLAA and the influence of AA, gives me the format necessary to embrace my agitation without having to engage in an additive process or harm others. Through a 10th step spot check inventory I am given the suggestion of “Pause”. This suggestion is indeed a miracle. Firstly, When I was in my addiction I never had a right or a choice to do anything but what the addiction told me to do and secondly later in recovery where I work a program, I find that old behavior can come up and that my inability to pause is due to my pride or my self centered impulse that dictates I do things to make me feel ok or to ignore it ( as an anorexic) and carry on! However I ...