Spiritual or Mental Defense: Bottom lines Part I
In my addiction, I had no ability to identify how my emotional, sexual and relationship patterns influenced my life. My life strategy was ingrained in my behavior early on in my formative and teenage years. I was essentially powerless to see my patterns. I was powerless because the way I thought and felt about what I did and what I did in general was of no matter to the consequences I got. As my shame got deeper ingrained and reinforced from the people I engaged with or the actions I took, the more my mental defense grew to shield me from my memories and the acting out went on. The big book clearly outlines this. When I substitute alcoholic for sex and love addict and drinking with outing out or relationship behavior I relate completely. “The fact is that most alcoholics for reasons yet obscure have lost the power of choice in drink our so called will power becomes practically nonexistent. We are unable at certain times to bring into our consciousness with sufficient ...